I know it’s Sunday Swoon. So I was late night swooning over this picture I painted with my left hand. Swooning for several reasons. Watercolor is a challenge for me. Left hand challenge for the whole month, so each time I do something, I am impressed with it. Here is another I am working on. Left hand work only….it’s not complete, but I promise I am in love with it. I was so amazed that I managed this with my left hand!
When I think about what I am doing, I always think that things happen for a reason. You know, my right arm is in a funk and I can barely raise it. So really, the nondominant challenge arrived at just the right time.
I have no idea why I am falling apart the way I am. I try not to complain about all the various pains that have shown up in my body. Especially my hands that I need so badly. I understand that I am getting older, but seriously, it has to be about more than what is currently happening.
I am only 55! Yet everything hurts. Badly. I try not to complain because my husband probably is tired of hearing about it. I try to convince myself that if I walk and carry on like it doesn’t really hurt, maybe it won’t. Some days that works for me and then some days, my body laughs and says, “Yeah, right!”
Okay. Advil, and keep it moving. I still have a life to live and I am going to live it. There are many days when I have to encourage myself and I do just that. Yes, there are nights I cry, but I wipe my eyes and keep putting one foot in front of the other.
It’s all relative. I think about the fact that there are many who are not able to wipe the tears from their eyes and keep moving. Many who would wish to be able to feel pain. Many who are no longer here.
I still have much to give, much to accomplish. I am going to fulfill that which I am destined for. Each step, each stroke of the key, each swipe of the brush, brings me closer to my destiny. I will press on. No matter what. Reason being.
IT’S ALL RELATIVE